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So addicted to Shortland Street, haha. [Aug. 2nd, 2005|07:02 pm]
[Current Mood |tiredtired]
[Current Music |Shortland St]

Yay, went to the gym today and picked me up some diet pills that will hopefully work. =) Plus I had a really good workout, unfortunately I couldn't push myself as hard as possible because my lungs were playing up though. I've got to get a new inhaler, I hate having to slow myself down on excercise machines because I'm having trouble breathing. Obviously smoking less would help too though.

Omg, my gran (who isn't actually related to me XD) is getting here Sunday and staying here for a month! That means it's someone home with me all day, she might notice that, y'know, I don't actually eat. And me, Caroline and Niffer have planned the biggest stoners session this weekend, and I just know I'm going to have the munchies x 1000000. So hopefully I'll be able to throw everything up, but some calories are bound to get in there. At least I know I'll eat less than usual, after how well I've been doing lately.

Calorie Intake Today

Red Bull Sugarfree = 7 kcal
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August 1 [Aug. 1st, 2005|03:10 pm]
[Current Mood |happyhappy]
[Current Music |Foo Fighters - Everlong]

Well, today's the beginning of the new month and a new regime. I weighed myself and took photos today, so now I know exactly where I stand - and exactly how much I have to lose. I'm not going to weigh myself for an entire month now though. Not till September 1st. Good weeks make you feel on top of the world, but bad weeks are just discouraging. And if I don't weigh myself for a month, I'm bound to be lighter. Oh, and since Thursday I've dropped 8 lb! =D

Joined a few new comms, I kind of want to have this as an active journal. I'll probably fiddle round with the background and layout later on tonight if I get the time.

Stats on August 1st 2005

Age: 17
Height: 5'4
Current Weight: 123 lb/56 kg
Goal Weight: 110 lb by 9.1.05
Long Term Goal Weight: 95 lb by whenever
BMI: 21.1

Calorie Intake Today

Jarrah Swiss Coffee w/o milk = 35 kcal

Hopefully that will be all. I'll edit this if for some reason I have to eat more.
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(no subject) [Jul. 27th, 2005|03:14 am]
[Current Mood |okayokay]
[Current Music |Juice TV - Ew.]

Shit, I'd almost forgotten I have this LJ. I've had the worst couple of months, after being good in May and losing some weight it all just went straight back on because I smoke so damn much weed. I hate it, because it makes me want to eat and I forget everything and lose all my self control. But weed, alcohol and writing are the only things that make my life worth living. They're the only things that enable me to escape from myself.

Anyway, I'm back. I need to weigh myself, take my measurements and take some photos. That way every time I think about eating, I can just look at a photo of myself and remember why I'm not.

Being out of school really fucks my days up though. I have almost nothing to do, so I sit around. If it's not raining I go for a walk and a smoke, but it's winter so most days it is raining. God, and I want to cut again so much. But I don't have any blades left anymore, I threw them all out.


_ Pack of razorblades
_ A fucking reliable speed dealer
_ Diet pills, proper ones not the herbal crap they sell round here. Hm, maybe there are some sold on the net I can get. Hopefully containing ephedrine.
_ More money
_ A new lighter, it's ridiculous how many matches I go through lighting one lousy smoke.

I'll post again Thursday with updated stats, tomorrow I'm helping my uncle move stuff around in his house so I won't get the time or privacy to do any of the things I need to.
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(no subject) [May. 20th, 2005|11:04 pm]

1 red bull = 120 cal
1 tiny piece grilled fish = 10 cal
2 oven baked chips = 25 cal

Total: 145 cal

Good. Had dancing tonight too, and danced with Tim for a while which is always a real workout. Plus they were quite tough moves tonight. And I walked into and around town. So that was good too! Nice day. =D
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(no subject) [May. 19th, 2005|11:43 pm]

Hmm. Not a good day, but I was sick. Will try and make up for it tomorrow. I have GOT to stop coming into the kitchen at night!


1 slice bread = 107 cal
1 bite chicken enchilada = 60 cal? Unsure.
4 gingernut biscuits = 340 cal
3 Milka chocolates = 75 cal

Total: 582 cal

Weight: 114 lb! SUPERYAY!
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(no subject) [May. 18th, 2005|11:42 pm]

AHHHH. I can't be fucked making a list of everything I ate, but I think it totalled around 800 cal. SO bad.
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(no subject) [May. 17th, 2005|11:41 pm]

NO calories. None at all. :D
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(no subject) [May. 16th, 2005|10:09 pm]

1 coffee w/ milk = 25 cal

Dammit. Today was going to be a no calorie day. I'll have to try harder tomorrow, damn not thinking when I agreed for La to go buy me a coffee. Would have been a nice thing for anyone else, but me, no. Didn't even get to tell her no milk. At least there was no sugar, and it was a very small cup. Oh well, tomorrow no-one should give me food...unless when I'm babysitting someone does. Crap. I really hope not.

Goal: No calories tomorrow. No gum, no diet coke, nothing except water and green tea.
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(no subject) [May. 15th, 2005|09:25 pm]

No calories. Ate dinner, but puked it back up immediately. I'll be making up for the damn weekend till Thursday I think. No calories will be my goal. I'll drink diet coke and that'll be it. I don't want to be throwing up anymore either. I hate it, and it's damaging my teeth and giving me a sore throat. I'm not a goddamn bulimic, I don't need the side effects of it.
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(no subject) [May. 14th, 2005|04:46 pm]

1 can iced coffee = 110 cal

Made my mum a really nice dinner and dessert. Didn't eat any of the dinner, but I had some of the dessert because it was butterscotch and I'm a sucker for butterscotch. Threw up immediately though. I hate how much I've been throwing up lately, it's so uncontrolled.
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